never say never

it's amazing how that little statement can be so true, "never say never". i think just about every time i said "never" to something it didn't work. interesting little word, "never".
this morning i get an email from someone i said i would never talk to again, never have anything to do with and all of sudden they want to see me. it's a long story the whole deal but it was one of those passionate situations riddled with hurt and selfishness inflicted on me. now i'm writing about "never say never". interesting really! is that what allows some of us to sleep at night or to feel suckered or both?! hmmm. i know one thing, i never want to regret anything! i'm not saying i'm gonna jump into a relationship again not remembering the past but allowing ourselves to get past the never might just be one very therapeutic thing. you say it in the heat of the moment and then there is this little thing called time that heals the hurt, it may never go away but it fades and then all of a sudden you are contemplating the never. as you know never is a long time and nothing is black and white, soooo what to do?! i see people around me who say never and mean it and they don't seem so happy. i've tried keeping track of the nevers i've said and it's exhausting and at times i plain don't remember why i said it. logging your nevers is a big job and i don't have the time or energy. so i guess i'll never stop saying never but i won't catalog them either. i'll remember the experiences, call me a sucker but life is too short people. my point! never say never, well say it but don't keep track and know that you might have been wrong or you might just change your mind. maybe it's not never that needs to be said but it's just thinking of a situation in a different way or just letting time heal, fade....