balance

life is something ain't it!? had the life changes (previous blog), went through hell only to come out the other end hurt. it's amazing to me that you can set out to help someone and in return get shit on. what's that all about? are people that messed up? i guess that's part of the balance of everything, people who help and people who hurt, good and bad. would we really not know what is good if we didn't have the bad? i suppose but come on. so yeah i have had a rough time lately dealing with life and unecessary hurt, exhaustion, stress...but through it all i have had my wonderful family right there for me the whole time. i've had some really bad bad but, but i've had some amazing good! focus on the good. don't waste your time people, believe me i have and it's not worth it. i'm dealing with it in other ways too like physical pain. ok some self talk here - focus on the good, dont waste your time on the bad cuz the peeps who inflict that aren't! not so easy for sure. well maybe not, maybe the focus needs to be on not having the balance! hmmmm, food for thought, maybe we need to focus on the good and forget the bad. can we as humans do that? well i guess i'm venting right out of the abyss so hopefully balance will be regained. ah, maybe it's not about throwing out the balance but waiting to get it back! now to get some patience :)