obsession and excitment

It always amazes and cracks me up what I get excited about. For instance, while constantly thinking about the look of our new kitchen and acquiring one of Ina Garten's cookbooks I start obsessing about the glass jars in her kitchen. I go to Homegoods to find some but they only have plastic. So I think to myself, good look and durable. I put them out and think at first I got the look but in a different way. Then a couple weeks go by as I pass them every day on my counter and use them (so they are functional), I start to think, hmmm, wrong look!?. So yesterday I head back to Homegoods to see what else they might have gotten in (I had a $10 off coupon and gift card burning a hole in my wallet). Well, to my surprise (not really, that place always has something for me) and glee I found glass ones with cute chalkboard labels and black tops. Perfect for my kitchen now and for my new one. AND they were only $7-$10! I was ecstatic, I ran home between my errands and the gym and quickly washed and filled them. I was five minutes late for my session but it was worth it. I love them! So yes I'm obsessed and excited. Why not? It reminds me of a post I saw on Facebook a couple of days ago, it went something like; we can learn from the children in our lives who embrace the fun and excitement in everything they see and do. So my point here is to look at fun, silly obsessions and excitement as blessings. So go obsess and get excited.

I'm back with a vengence :)

I know it's been too long. Not sure what happened!? Just lost my way I guess. Well lately I've been thinking I need to share more :) so here I am. I'm in the midst of building a house and my creative juices are flowing! Man I love this stuff. "Should we go with french doors or federal style windows?" "Should we have wide plank floors throughout or varying widths!?" I'm in heaven! And with mulling over pictures, magazines, books...I'm always thinking now of what could be. In the kitchen too, another place I love! So here I am, back with a vengence to share more! Thanks to friends prodding me, a wonderful husband allowing me (and I don't mean that in the 1950's sense!) and my kids who inspire me to be a better person. See you soon...

you just never know...

you just never know what's going to happen next. we often take that statement for granted since we are so busy dealing with this or that or the other thing. but when something or someone gets taken away you stop and think about it. i often talk about how busy i am or how tired i am or how there's always something to deal with. well in the big picture none of that matters if you don't take the time to appreciate the things that are always there like moms, dads, friends, kids, pets... or whatever it is because the reality is they aren't always going to be there. it makes you think about all those "little" things that bother you and how meaningless and time consuming they are. but what happens is, alot of times you hear a tragic story and think about it for that day or so and then you go back to the "grind". the key is to keep that close to you i think. we'd all be a little kinder, slower, happier. the only constant in life is change. no one or nothing will be around forever and they might go sooner than you think. life is so very precious, more precious and fragile than you think. we all take this for granted, myself included but if we took more time to stop and think about that the better we would be for it. call, write, say i love you, hug, share, cherish.... we won't stop the busy, the tiredness or any of our usual dealings but we'll hopefully live in less regret, live softer, live happier.

it's with a heavy heart that i relay a good friend of mines mom passed away this week. it was extremely sudden and came out of no where. it really makes you think when you hear about things like this. especially when they hit so close to home. truly this is a case of never knowing what is going to happen from one day to the next. so go hug someone now or tell them i love you or share something. life IS short!

xo

happy new year

i'm so happy to be in a new year, new decade. something new ya know!? freshness is what i'm thinking. no resolutions just being fresh in all of its definitions :)

balance

life is something ain't it!? had the life changes (previous blog), went through hell only to come out the other end hurt. it's amazing to me that you can set out to help someone and in return get shit on. what's that all about? are people that messed up? i guess that's part of the balance of everything, people who help and people who hurt, good and bad. would we really not know what is good if we didn't have the bad? i suppose but come on. so yeah i have had a rough time lately dealing with life and unecessary hurt, exhaustion, stress...but through it all i have had my wonderful family right there for me the whole time. i've had some really bad bad but, but i've had some amazing good! focus on the good. don't waste your time people, believe me i have and it's not worth it. i'm dealing with it in other ways too like physical pain. ok some self talk here - focus on the good, dont waste your time on the bad cuz the peeps who inflict that aren't! not so easy for sure. well maybe not, maybe the focus needs to be on not having the balance! hmmmm, food for thought, maybe we need to focus on the good and forget the bad. can we as humans do that? well i guess i'm venting right out of the abyss so hopefully balance will be regained. ah, maybe it's not about throwing out the balance but waiting to get it back! now to get some patience :)

it doesn't take much

it didn't take much but a few friends responding so positively to this blog for me smile all day and send it out to more people. i was so happy people liked what i had to say. i was psyched. then i had a bad week and when i have a bad week i dont want to talk. and there it goes. is that normal?

always something

i find myself saying "always something" alot. is that what life is all about, the next something? are all people's "somethings" relative or do some have more than others? how do you deal with the "somethings"? some i know easier than others. i'm a worrier so most "somethings" get to me. i guess that's why i say it so much because there is ALWAYS something; to think about, worry about, wonder about.... how to organize these "somethings" is the key as with most things. i have of late being trying to take a breath when the "somethings" overwhelm. i tell myself, "you can't fix this right away" and usually the orginal "something" changes it form. breath! time! organize! i guess these are my points. now if i could only practice what i preach! i'm always thinking about something - wondering, worrying, mulling. sometimes it's too much BUT i am aware and trying and i've been told that's the best one can do. being aware and trying to do your best, good ones to live by. so there is always going to be something, that's life. what you do with it is key, not easy i know!